I suppose what happened yesterday was good, although it certainly wasn't pleasant. It's true that our IMs had a distinct flirtatious flavor, and he would be disingenuous to deny that. Nonetheless, what business did I have developing a crush--feelings even--for a guy I had never met. I didn't really even know what it looks like. Total rookie mistake. My heart has been softened by four years of not dating, and it needed to be reeducated.

Needless to say, he was simply "not that into me" (that's for you Steph). It was crushing, because we had spent the whole day together, having fun, talking about being gay in Korea, comparing relationship history, and then he dropped the bomb.

The question is what to do with that. Is it an indication that I have no business looking for a boyfriend in Korea? Or a dating refresher before somethin better comes down the pipe? In either case, I fall back on my axiom: You cannot find love, but never fear; it will find you. I cannot hide, even if I cloister myself up, which I feel like doing. I probably will for a week or so, but I am a man after all, and the box has been opened.